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It has been a real long day today, not a great start to it but luckily a peaceful evening. Sleeping for just 3-4 hours a day has become part and parcel of this not so busy schedule. Final year of Mba does not keep the students academically busy to say the least (may be this statement is limited only to the Marketing students) for most of the trimester we have hardly had any lectures. Fortunately or unfortunately the irregularity in academic schedule has come to an end this week, for we had lectures till late evening for the entire week and like everybody else I too was waiting for the week to end, and hoping that the sunday would give me the time to rest my back which has been paining badly since the last 2 weeks. But all the hopes went down the drain when i realized i had to attend a family function and i could not easily say no to it for the sake of ones' who claimed the importance of my presence at the occassion.

I should have understood the flow of the day with the way it day started, left home around 9.30 am for i had to take my nephew to the dance class, hardly 2kms away from home the back wheel of my bike got punctured again (again becuase it had got punctured only 2 days ago and i took my 3 hrs to find a mechanic and get it fixed), while i was cribbing my nephew was happy as he got a reason to miss his dance class. It was a sunday and only close to 10 am, hence finding a mechanic was a tough job to do, but with Danu's company it did not seem very difficult, its amazing how a 7 year old can be so motivating and supportive. Finally got the bike fixed and came back home around 11 , then was asked to go shopping with dad to buy gifts (and not a gift) for the function we were all to attend in the afternoon. Sometimes i  wonder if celebrating every little occassion is just a way of flauting your wealth and receiving gifts.I generally do not prefer attending family get togethers unless its close family wedding but  this time i had no choice(a bad choice though) but to attend it for the sake of  maintaining the charm of the newly built relationships. I find such functions a waste of time,energy and money and an easy way of flaunting ones wardrobe and jewellery collection  and also to a large extent the bond with their spouse (irrespective of how weak or incompatible the bond is, Indian Men and women can easily pretend to be the most caring and loving partners at such occassions).

After a careful selection of gifts came back home, for some known but not to be mentioned reasons i chose to dress up in a manner different than i normally do- a little extra jewellery than i did the last time i attended a function by the same host Only after reaching their did i realize that i was dressed in a much simpler way than other guests there did, that any which ways does not matter to me and  respect every ones own style of dressing. But what i do not understand or rather do not like is the way people judge others by the way they are dressed or by the number of  soverigns they are wearing and its more hurting when someone who claimed the importance of your presence at the occassion also comments though in a very subtle manner on the way you are dressed or done your hair. Why is it that everything else becomes more important than the person itself, if i chose to attend the uninteresting function even though you know that i have stopped attending any such celebrations then why do you care how i am dressed, why dont you just ignore what the other good for nothing,useless, fat gossip mongers say , when i have no problem with the way i look then why do you care. Why dont you stop advising me and accept things the way they are. Why dont people realize that the relationship is more important than the outer look of the individual with whom you share the relationship and why cant we stop changing the way others dress, eat , walk and talk.

Only you

Everytime I look at you
My Love for you comes through
But how does one hide
The feelings so deep and true

A look into your gleaming eyes
Without words answers all the Whys
I Watch you walk with faultless grace
Could spend my life just watching your glowing face

Your laugh is such a great delight
You are my shining armour Knight
Your smile warms my soul with gay
Your voice takes my breath away

But what I see that brings these tears
And causes me my greatest fears
Are not the things I've told till now
But rather what fate wont allow

In those deep eyes I will never see
A look of love from you to me
I 'll watch you walk, but walk away
I 'll miss you each and every day


You will laugh and you'll celebrate
You'll smile but that smile isn't for me
You'll care but not for me
You'll love but not me
Someone else will hold your hand
And leave my feelings tightly canned

Whatever I do and wherever I wander
That you love me , I 'll never hear
And one thing that god has due
Is this chance to spend my life with you